my life's filled with so many activities at the moment! filled to the brim! heh.

21st birthday parties EVERY week! missed a few already.. :( feel so bad.. but there were a few i had no one close to go with.. i feel blessed sometimes to have so many individual close friendships.. but when it comes to birthday parties, it's really difficult for me to attend alone.. cos im quite zi bi at times.. and i take quite sometime to warm up..

tuition twice a week for my dear p2 kid! she's practically driving me crazy every single session.. sometimes i really dread tutoring her.. but it really warms my heart to see the big smile on her face whenever she sees me! but that's all. the next two hours will be a torture for me.. she loves to argue with me.. and she likes to say "my teacher say.." or else "my mother say.." ARGH. her exam's this coming monday.. seriously i have no idea whether or not she will be able to even pass.. i've been communicating with her in English for the past 4 months cos she doesnt even understand a basic sentence in Mandarin.. thinking of borrowing some nursery Chinese storybooks for her after her exams.......

piano lessons! apparently i have been paying Level 1 fees after completing my Level 1 and 2.. cos the receptionist made a mistake! haha so in a way, i zhuan dao! Level 3 now.. will prolly take another 2 months plus to complete the whole Pop Piano course... thinking of taking up Lyrics Writing course after that.. but my parents kinda want me to continue my classical.. ahhhh but im kinda lazy to practise already.......

i havent been attending cell/service dutifully all cos of my super many birthday parties! went to church twice this month.. and im glad i can still fit in rather comfortably.. but it seems kinda hard for me to return for good.. Fright Night TOMORROW, which will last till saturday morning.. and after that i will have another 21st birthday party to attend~ *faints* and then the following week will be Welfare Chalet.. another weekend gone...... and then!! the following following week end will be Lishi's 21st...... goshhh.

CCP meetings almost every week.. sighs i still cannot contribute alot when my usual kakis arent with me! hmph. really hope our programme will be a success.. if not the 3h long meetings we have every week would have gone to waste...

we havent gone out on a proper date ever since school started! :'( how sad la. we only get to meet for dinners.. and most of the time, our dinners are with lots of people! hmphh. which explains my "high maintenance" for the past 2 weeks... not my fault okayyy... i need time to adjust to this new routine.....

FRIGHT NIGHT TOMORROW!!

i really hope i wont freak out too much.. excos please dont zen3 J too much......

And so it seems..

Im just too lazy to set up another blog after all.. I do feel like adding some pics and customisations to my blog.. But no time and too nua to do so.. Anybody willing to help me with a nice customised banner at the top?

Im back here after a 3-month long hiatus..

I don't know how i should be feeling now.. It's a mixture.. A confused state.. The number of fights/quarrels/bickers we had this month seem to add up to even more than the total number of the same set of things in the six months. Not sure if the problem lies with myself anymore.. What should i do now? what can i do? It's so difficult sometimes......



so near yet so far..